---a cHain oF mEmoRies---

prom!

2006-11-18T21:40:00.000+08:00

you know what? i think my council seniors are so bang4! they're having exams and lessons and work and lots of things yet they are still able to complete so many things for the prom! haah...i feel like i'm not doing anything la! hee so guilty. and it's so fun to work with them! haha...oh and did i mention they are so capable and knows so many contacts. it's really really alot! you ask them to source for something, they'll find you a list of contacts. wow. ok i'm going to learn from them man...haha...secretly learn...sssshhhhhhhhhhhhh....

prom is nearing! less than a week to go! sigh. one mroe week and i won't see my seniors so often anymore...shoot...

oh and trainings are so fun and tiring! ahah...and we ( the girls ) think that mr goh is so funny and cute...haha...he keeps joking with us?hha..and he told me one day in mandrin,'' ai, you come in the shade, you're too black alr, can't see you anymore...'' i was so shocked la! haha...it's the first time he joked then after that, he kept saying funny stuff...haha...whee....so fun! haah...ok. erm.that's not the point.

whee

2006-11-08T22:15:00.000+08:00

OP is finally over!!!

yay.but i'm also feeling empty right now. i think the idea of not being able to go to hillview (to pia our proj) has not sank in. sigh. haha..i'm feeling quite weird now. how do i describe it? erm like i haven't been very nice to my group? and now i'm quite guilty of it as in, everyone worked equally hard just to make my group's project successful. yet i've always been complaining abt my group. it's a really mixed feeling. sigh. that's why i've thought of giving something to my group mates. sort of to 'pay back' everything and thank them for their hard work? hee. my group has really been nice, overall though some ppl do not like somE pple. that's not the pt. haha..anyways, GOOD JOB AC 169!!! =) lurve you all!

oh, kathy, if you are reading this, pls pls pls tell me when is the gathering!!! i want to sing again!! arg. feeling so deprived of singing choir songs, though i htink i won't be able to sing anymore. kind of lost the sound and everything? my singing is horrible...rah... ok but still, i want to sing!!!hee...so pls pls pls tell me when you all are meeting and i'll try to go! ;) yups.

and liru, i'm sorry my 2nd last entry's font was so miniature...haha..i didn't realise it. hee. yups.

oh and did i mention to you all that i passed my promos? hee... lucky! haha.. got a U for physics tho. so any one who has a passing grade for physics, pls help me! i really really need help!!!hahah...thanks...

anyway, take care

kaiyan

exams are kinda over...

2006-10-08T22:19:00.000+08:00

hmmm...you know what? i seriously dont' know if any one is reading what i'm typing..haha..i think that this is just anyother place for me to reveal all my frustrations or something? hmmmif there's anyone reading, can you pls comment or something? haha..i feel kind of weird typing stuff here but there's no one to read it. i'd rather pen down all this stuff though. hmmmm...

exams are over! kind of...hmmm...and now..I"M BORED...oh no! i'm so restless, so looking forward to end of the year, to the trip, to christmas! rats. sigh...i dont' like jc life. i really truely miss sec sch life. sigh....

dont' want to continue this any more...

lazing around...

2006-09-29T22:46:00.000+08:00

man..think i'm really getting fat! how...haha..i never felt like this before. sigh. getting a little depressed and my left eye keeps twitching these few weeks. hmmm...i wonder if that means something. maybe my eye's hinting to me that i haven't been sleeping enough? haha.. whatever.

oh. today, we had gp and econs paper. i'm so drained. wondering how i'm to survive through the 2 3-hour papers on monday. hmmmm...for today's paper, i thought that econs wasn't as bad as terms. at least i had soemthing to write for the essay and i attempted all questions ok? it's been a great improvement since terms ( glad...) but i'm hoping to be able to at least pass all my subjects (including econs and gp).

hee. it's kind of weird! in secondary school, we'll be like,''hey!what did you get? i got a b3 you know? die la... must work harder! stress ah...''

but now,

''hey what did you get? wow~you passed all your subjects! so pro! i hope i can pass all too! don't wanna get retained...''

hmmm...it's just less than 1 year! haha...what a huge change!=)

oh you know what? i think that i've changed. i've changed to someone more quiet, more lonely, more subtle. i've got no idea why too but i think i prefer my old self. it might be because of the culture? i'm not sure. i begin to see things in a different perspective than before. some people whom i thought(initially)were nice turned out to be those not-so-nice people whom i won't want to be with. even secondary school people you know? sigh. dont' know why things have turned out like that.haha. i was/ am so innocent! i used to think that i shouldn't be hating anyone or staying away from that some one but as time goes by, i'm beginning to realise that i really should follow my heart and stop being such a hypocrate.i'm like back stabbing people and i know i shouldn't do so. i just, i just don't know that i'm back stabbing until i've said it out. sigh. some one please shut me off before i start backstabbing people!

wow. that sounded sad. ya. i guess i've been bottling it up. hee.

k think i shall end this soon or else...(i'll definitely be able to crap until this entry is like super long)haha..

JIA YOU FOR PROMOS PPL!
I LOVE CSS!!!
i'll changed my blogskin soon ie after promos and after jasmine teaches me how to change it! hee..i'm quite a internet idiot, i must admit.

"I walk slowly, but I never walk backward."

crazy gal...

2006-08-16T20:02:00.000+08:00

hey!

hmmmm. just realised something! i have been using the wrong thing to compose a post all along! haha...man...

okie...i shall make this short coz i haven't done my homework and everything muahaha... i had a class outing like last sat? it wasn't that bad la =) at least i got to meet many many people whom i see in sch but rarely talk to. hmmm...weird huh? same school but i don't get to talk to them. haha.. but the BEST thing is.... I GOT TO SEE SOPHIA! haha... * sophia? are you reading this? haha...* i miss you....right. and i got to play and take many pictures too! i think i'm crazy about taking pictures of things but not me being in the pic! haha....

the outing wasn't bad la... and don't worry ps-ing us...haha... it's ok ya? =) we shall meet up soon k? before you leave! haha... great to see you so fit and still can walk with such big blisters at your heels! ahah... man i htink i'll just wear slippers with that! anyway, hope that it's healing! =)

ya but anyway, promos is in like 6 weeks! argh!!! just only 1 week to study per subject! how to survive? and i'm still on line...can't stand myself...i need motivation! haha...kk... i forgot taht this was supposed to be a short entry. oh well, gtg. seeya!

signing off,
kai

canoe season...OVER

2006-07-17T00:00:00.000+08:00

greetings!

canoeing season is over! and right now, we're stopping training until after promos ( i think...) it's only the 2 day without training and i'm already feeling so fat! how am i going to survive? haah...i think i'm not the only one feeling like that coz there are a few people who wants to go running tomorrow too! =) heh...i'm not alone! yay! ok, i've got to admit that i was craving for slums during season but now, after just 2 days of slum, i've decided to go back on my diet...just yesterday, i bit on my lip 3 times at the same spot! so from then on, i've decided to go back on my diet- an oily-free, fried-free diet...=) grinz...haha...yup yup

i've got to prepare for a new week! yups...seeya!

the magical chocolate!

2006-07-14T23:02:00.000+08:00

wow! you know that chocolate can really make you happy? haha...it really worked for me though i was only drinking chocolate and not eating it...hahaa..the best thing is, i was super moody today then after consuming chocolate, i became very hyper! haha..so maybe you guys out there might like to try it too =)

oh btw, i'm not sure if the shop from which the drink is bought matters but anyway, its from godiva!!! it's this very posh looking shop along city link mall..haha...their chocolates are so tempting and sinful! arrrgggg....i shall buy some one day....some day...some how...ohoh, though it is ex, it's chocolate is very nice! ok at least their drink was nice alr can? haha..1st time i'm drinking this kind of high class drink...feeling so priviledged and pampered. moreover, the drink is kind of like a treat from some classmate of mine! we shared 2 cups between 4 ppl...haha...

I'M A HAPPY GIRL TODAY!

there's slum, seniors kept giving us food, ate kfc, ate DURIAN today, drank some high class chocolate latte and and and...no school today! haah...

k, i'd better get gg now, see you soon =)

tata

a sad sad day =) [there's irony here but oh well]

2006-07-11T19:50:00.000+08:00

hey...

i feel so sad today. sigh. but i can't type the reason out here. oh well, just say that i felt betrayed and so small, like some insignificant thing wandering in a big big world.sigh. dislike this feeling but some how, when some kind soul tries to 'console' me, i feel worst.

Oh well, but at least i did have some happy moments today =) some juniors of mine recognised me! ahhh! that's one thing to be really happy about! coz i haven't seen those juniors for a long time and i used to be better than them but now, they've overtaken me. haha...but i don't mind it =) youngsters now a days are getting more intelligent and they can swim so much faster than us! hahah...

This time round, when i went to toa payoh swimming complex, it seems so different! the last time i stepped in there was like 4 years ago and like it feels so totally different now. it seems somewhat unfamiliar and the image in my mind seems somewhat outdated. sigh. things have changed so much but i guess i shouldn't be fretting about it now.there's always another side to things and it's quite true actually. i've kind of given up this sport but on another hand, i got to experience another sport namely canoeing. i'm not sure if canoeing would bring about as much joy to me as compared to swimming. rats...will i regret it?

canoeing is one injury prone sport. that's what i learnt until now. hope that i would still be able to row 1000 with that shoulder blade injury. sigh. i'm not pulling the right strokes! and it hurts when i'm paddling...can you believe it? just 3 days before nationals! argh! why me? ahhh....

ah yan over and out

my new cca!

2006-07-06T00:27:00.000+08:00

i've decided to be nice and like talk about canoeing! haah..let me start with the last trg... i feel that my boat is not as stable as last time. I've got no idea why and i'm getting a little demoralised by that. sigh. i was so comfortable with cephas before terms but now...i'm like losing touch! aaaaagggggggghhhhh! how??? so although today's training was short and supposingly fun, i didn't really 'enjoy' it lah! was too fed up with myself because i was constantly slapping water! was it the water or was it just me? i'm not too sure of that too! well, it was only during the last lap, when all the other boats are gone, that i feel more stable. My strokes felt better =)

so, maybe it was due to the waves huh? oh ya...someone please correct my strokes! i know i'm pulling too far back but i don't know how it feels like not pulling that far! how far am i pulling? someone please tell me =)

right now, i'm just doing my best, trying not to capsize during my laps...really scared of the competition coming up soon. sigh. really hope that i'd be able to paddle as smooth and steady as last time! hope that i won't cap on the race day...1st canoe competition!!! excited yet, SCARED! yup yup. so...i'll update again some time...right now, i've got to sleep! there's swimming heats tmr and trg and sch...yups.

that's all for now folks( sounds familiar? haha..)

MIND OVER BODY, i'm rowing this lap for you! =)

ciao~
kaiyan sleeping!!!

presently...

2006-07-05T23:49:00.000+08:00

hey!

it's been a very long time since i've blogged! haha..oh well, maybe i should like start blogging again( if i have the time to come online). Ah...where should I start?

For some ppl's info....
I'm in ACJC currently, enjoying life there in canoeing cca...( ps i'm not in choir! and pls don't ask me why i didn't join choir...haha..i've got no idea too) yups. seriously, ac isn't as bad as i thought it would be.=) it's a pretty fun place, packed with lots of eye-candies and chio bus...haha. but when it comes to school work, i have to work super super hard eh! ahha..can't really cope with school work now.

i've got no idea why but it's like when i feel like i've done quite well, it turns out to be the exact opposite! Really hope that it's the same with terms! it won't be any good if i screw up my terms huh? haha..* looking hopeful*

yups. think that's kind of all that i've got to say abt ac? haah..my mind is soper rusty and i've got no idea what i should write in a blog!! haha..plllease help...muahahah...

ps oh ya, if there are any ac canoeist reading this...want to start a blog for canoeist? it'll be super fun!!

memories of JJC

2006-03-04T21:22:00.000+08:00

have fun looking at e pic! =)

can read la huh...

qiwen and me!!! so sweet right? haah.. we're both leaving jj so this is a very valuable pic orh...haha..

OGLs plus sokkin...haha...from left: meng how, farid, sokkin, cui min and (below a litte...ahah..)zhiyao... they make up OG16 too k?

OG16... closkwise: me, chris, zhi ming, zhong ru, sokkin and qiwen...

just some ppl who got together weirdly...hahah...i just sat at their OG table every morning, occupying their seats then..haha...i din know them at the beginning la!

ppl from my OG, clockwise starting from the top left: sokkin,micheal, karo,kaiyan and siok hui!

my dance partner! got to know her while dancing mass dance for the 1st time...haha...

class 06S19 with ms shirley chan( GP tutor )! she's actually quite chio one but dunno know e photo came out not very nice.haha..her hair became so white!

posting results

2006-03-03T22:16:00.000+08:00

hey.........

one week's over and like we just got out posting results today....i'm going to ACJC. i really don't know if i should be happy or sad. it's like i would like to stay in JJ coz i like it there and it's very like commonwealth culture. but AC's acedemic is better and like what we hear abt the sch are only rumours so they may not be true. sigh. it's really a hard hard decision to make you know? deciding between jj and ac. i know many would tell me ac is a good sch but how could i deny the fact that i like the style at jj and jj isn't a bad choice too? it's just so confusing, all these choosing of school. my my...can some one tell me what to do?

hmmmm...want me to tell you more about jj? it's such a nice place!haha...wah i tell you...if i say more about jj, this will be like a propaganda alr!haha

oh...just want to say some thing to my friends in jj:

hey ppl...you know something? it's been great knowing you guys. it's only 2 months and like i'm so so reluctant to leave you all. it seems like we've grown up in this new environment and got to play, sleep, eat, cry, crap etc together too! what fun times we had! esp to OG16 ppl.... i lurve you guys! you all are so bonded together even after the camp and you know what? i'll feel bad if i don't join you ppl for breaks! haah...i really enjoyed the times spent together and just like the lyric in e song '' tonight'' , i'll remember the times we've spent together...until my last december, tonight. you guys have earned a special place in my heart so don't you guys even forget about me! whatever it is, must update me on events or gossips ( like the forever changing 'pairs' or what's happening in jj ) i'm still looking forward to hearing everyone argueing over something la..it's always so funny to listen to our OG 16 arguements..haha...esp when it's btw xk and sokkin!!!!haha..super duper funny!

actually, i'd like describe a little abt out OG...haha...
there are a few chio bu and a few very guai1 pai gia (direct translation: bad kids) in our OG. a mynmmar and a korean guy too! erm..then there's this very small and cute gal who's nick is xiao bu dian. haha.. then some are very extremely enthu, some very xiao ppl, some with very funny characters, very 'on', very pron to injuries... but all in all...we're all very united! like it or not, we're called e most enthu OG by quite a no. of ppl la! quite famous in a sense too!! haah...oh ya..and we have a self- proclaimed 5th OGL too! though most of OG16 ppl are OGLs, themselves, now...haha... this OG is a creation of many enthu and siao ppl coming together as one OG called OG16- flame on!Adding on, our OGLs plus senior! they're e best too! heh. shall name them...zhi yao, farid, meng how, cuimin and....gang yi!! they're really dedicated and so good to us! quite lame also.haha.. but ....all together, we're gonna dump e rest into the trash with our OG16 spirit....haha..rem PA worx!

i've got so much to say to everyone in jj but i just can't seem to put it all down in words. there're some things that can't be expressed in words! haah..

to my classmates:
i'm sorry you guys have to keep hearing my voice in class....haha..can't be helped la..just so hard to make this talkative gal quiet when she's high right? haah..should see me when i'm in a camp la.hahah...you won't be able to stand me then.haha..so. i'm glad to be classmates with you guys and come to think of it, our class is quite quite playful huh? haha..i'm glad i have kian hao, edmund, hong ming, belinda, karolyn to make tutorials lively, not forgetting pei pei, serena, sharon, su hua, suanwoo,shirleen who'd start laughing all of a sudden, making e whole class laugh together with you guys...haha...shangyu, zhi zhong, kai mun, shi jie, fook tian, who's always not pon-ning lessons ( thanks for no pon-ning too! at least got some one to accompany me to lessons...then i dun have to face the teachers along..haha..) thank you all of you! heh....

okok..think i'll write this for now...next entry should be on acjc already, i expect. i'll tell you more abt it when i get there...yups. so for the time being, take care ppl. night.

and so i say...

2006-02-21T22:53:00.000+08:00

greetings! haha..actually there's nothing much going on here other than the choosing of schools and the normal crazy jj life. hah...
think that sch's getting more and more fun...the topics, the fact that i'm making more friends each day, the trying out of all the sch food ( make me sound like a pig..haha..) yaya..all that stuff...

i'm still enjoying my life here in jj! haha..still as crazy and i don't know why but it's like whenever i have pc ( physical conditioning = pe ) i will be very high one! especially when pc is my 1st lesson of the day.haah..wheee...

oh and did i tell you? mr wee is my maths tutor. and we did nick name some teachers too you know? there's a so-called ''fishmonger'' ( me and my friend named him that)just bcoz he reared some fish in the sch. i mean it's like an aquarium...haah..at least got 50 fish la! have fighting fish, gold fish, angel fish, sucker fish etc... so cool right? then there's this teacher who's a guy but is a ''sister'' of my friend and he doesn't mind it! haha..quite young teacher ya and very friendly...not to mention his very very good memory...haha.. ya...oh and have another ''laksa'' teacher coz he's always seen eating laksa ya..haha..he happens to be my physics teacher though. * grinz...*

well well..i crashed ac last week too! so cool right? but it's scary i tell you. haha..a few day later, i went there again..coz of fun-o-rama...haha..liru brought me around lol..and can you imagine it? just a few rounds round the stalls and i felt like melting...it was so so so hot la..i bet most of those ppl at the outdoor stalls were burnt lor.hahah..ya. but it's quite fun. a big success i hope!( coz i also got contribute leh...got buy tickets ma..) hahha.. ok. i'm startin to crap...

going on....

specially to sophia wong hui ting...
i haven't told you how i know ur auntie huh?haha...oops. oh ya..forgot to say...WELCOME TO MY BLOG! haha..was that welcome-y enough? heh...hmmmm...also want to tell you...i MISS you! no sophia here for me to disturb everyday, no sophia to nag at me everytime i slack, with no sophia here...i won't be able to feel cold bcoz of all ur lame jokes...* pouts...*

hahah...whatever...oh right...hope u're not frozen there..it's very hot here la..haha...wish we could pass you some of the heat...hmmm...hhaha...take care gal..smile more! and and and...next time must teach me spanish! haha..

okie..think i'll better stop here and finish up my homework. haha.good nite...=)

crapping

2006-02-19T22:06:00.000+08:00

just thought that i should be a little more hardworking and type more regularly...

i've got my o level results and....i got 10 points! wow...haha...that's less than i've expected. heh. ( don't ask individual sub grades...) =) oh yes so i had a hard time choosing my choices. though i won't mind staying in jjc. heh.

jjc is actually not as bad as many sees it to be. well, b4 i entered the school, i heard many ppl saying bad things abt it. but after entering, i got brain washed and thought that it wasn't that bad actually. the teachers are good ( that's if u're lucky..), the people there are like...so friendly and cheerful and as crazy as me! haha..though i've got to admit, academic wise, it's quite slack..haha....but i'm enjoying it! woot...

finding myself getting lazy already. haiz. had better start cracking!

there are so many things happening now ya? haha..and guess what? i suddenly want to be a secondary school kid again! hmmmmmmmm..it's ironic but like when i'm in jc, i want to go back in time while when in sec sch, i want to hurriedly get to jc.. sigh..
i miss you guys ( css ppl esp 4/1 ppl )

oh, and there is this song that i think is very touching...i mean, when you see the lyrics only, it may not be so but when it comes with the tune, hah..memories just came back to me la...i learnt it in jjc so...don't spread...haha..here it goes:

tonight, we remember the times that we spent here,
the joy and the laughter that we shared
tonight we cherish the moments spent together
because it's the only time we have

look at us, and see our smiles
this is where we all belong
i'll remember the times we spent together
until my last december...
tonight

so,i'll end off here ya? seeya ard!

lurve ya...

hello!

2005-12-24T15:51:00.000+08:00

i've decided to start typing some things here. =)
so let's see, what happened recently? okok. think i shall just talk about some thing that is closest to my heart. choir fArewEll...

ok. so here it goes. choir farewell was on the 21st dec 2005, wed. weird day but that's not the point. ok. when i reached there during lunch, i was still desperately searching for time to finish up my notes for some people! haha. i'm sorry but i really didn't have time to finish them at home. yups.

afternoon were the games section and how i miss playing the games instead of being game masters! it's been a long time( 3 years ok?) since i managed to play the games with choir ppl. sigh. i'm deprived of it. haha. oh ya, i forgot to say this to the com...great games, you've got! ahah. it was well organised and i'm glad to say that every one enjoyed the games! haha. yups.

so while trying to finish writing all my notes, i've got jane, trixia, fangyi, jason and some others to accompany me in the canteen too! heh. it's sad to know that this will be our last time together. sigh. how i wish that time did not have to pass so quickly. we've only been together for a few years yet, the reluctancy to leave the csschoir is so great. csschoir is a place i, too, call my home.

the many bonds we've built, the many difficulties we've all overcame and all the joy and laughter shared would be hard to forget. although i once said that the sec 1s will or rather, may replace us, i know that it would not be quite possible in terms of our memories and friendship. sigh. * wish i had prepared a better speech...i've got so much to say but i wasn't prepared*

oh ya, here, i'll like to thank all the teachers and conductors for takin such good care of us while we were in choir. all of them really showered us with care and concern and also, lots of encouragements. thank you.
to the choir, thanks you for co-operating with the com and working so hard to achieve our aim.
to the sec 3 com'05, thank you for the wonderful farewell. it's a nice ending to end off our 4 years in css choir. thank you.
to all who had put up at least one performance on the day of our farewell, thank you for the hard work. it's really touching to see you guys working so hard, just for us. thanks.

ps i'll stop here for the time being if not i'll really start bursting out in tears if i continue reminiscing.

thank you choir for all that you've done. i lurve ya and nothing, really nothing can replace you in my heart. missing you always.

take care and may you have a smooth journey next year.

some of my prom pic? [dun comment...i know i look ugly]

2005-12-07T15:31:00.000+08:00

more pictures!

PROM @ fort canning hill

2005-12-05T19:01:00.000+08:00

gReetiNgs!!
well, these are some of the prom photos that i've got with me. yups. =)
enjOy!!!